i quit this wedding.
i quit planning it. i quit thinking about it. i quit talking about it. obviously, i can barely keep up posting about it. this wedding sucks.
and i blame myself. i blame myself for creating our site and telling people that we are engaged. i blame myself for blabbing and venting about this process on facebook, so… i left facebook. that felt good.
i just want to be left alone. i don’t want to hear about this wedding again. i don’t want to think about this wedding anymore. why couldn’t we just have eloped? i just want to run away…