I quit

i quit this wedding.

i quit planning it.  i quit thinking about it.  i quit talking about it.  obviously, i can barely keep up posting about it.  this wedding sucks.

and i blame myself.  i blame myself for creating our site and telling people that we are engaged.  i blame myself for blabbing and venting about this process on facebook, so… i left facebook.  that felt good.

i just want to be left alone.  i don’t want to hear about this wedding again.  i don’t want to think about this wedding anymore.  why couldn’t we just have eloped?  i just want to run away…


i quit.